Bloggage is slow as I’m supposedly busy with work. Which I am but I certainly dont call it work. I, quite surprisingly, enjoy work and this I am not enjoying…but here’s a few thoughts…Israel believes it will become a pariah state soon…I suppose there are 2 ways of fixing it….either protect yourself or reach out. I think on this occasion the former will have more effect.
UPDATE:
Oh and at least some people are doing stuff to aid understanding…
Cool Eid Weekend. Fireworks which fizzled. Family fun and relaxation. Ruqaiiya screaming with fear as all the other kids screamed the house down.
But otherwise all good. Nothing major happened. Just chilled. Well its Monday evening and I’m back in Brighton tomorrow. Booked a room at the Alias Seattle which looks wicked! Still, no doubt that the work isn’t going to be the same.
Have been thinking a lot about my iman and what I have done for its good recently. I can honestly say..’Not Much!’.
Ramadan has come and gone, but I dont feel like I used to. Not sure why. Just don’t.
Ultimately I wonder where my allegiances lie.
At the end of the day I cannot imagine life without Afrina and Ruqaiiya. But with my time commitment at work, I am losing perspective at home. I am not giving anyone any attention. And I can see the effect of that now. I can see things beginning to fall over. I can see things breaking down. But I don’t know what to do about it.
I am hoping the next 5 days can give me some time to spend with my family. I can try and rebuild the bridges. I can try and see what I am doing wrong. Although I have a suspicion that I know what I’m doing wrong. My time commitment to work has gotten out of hand. The “work-life balance” (yeuch!) is distinctly out of sync. I find myself dreaming about work. I am living in work. That is all I spend time on. And I can see the detrimental effect this is having on my wellbeing. Emotional, physical and mental. I feel myself beginning to let go of certain things which I would have stuck to with a passion. I feel a disconnect from the world as a whole and see myself focusing on just problems with work.
Unbelievably busy. Dealing with egos. Clocking in 70+ hours a week. And I am soooo tired.
Still. I have tomorrow, Friday and Monday off. Which means that I can shut down for 5 days in a row. Thats a luxury and a half.
